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October 1st, 2003

heat . . . kemana kau?

My heater is kaput. Well, furnace actually. Which wouldn't be that much of a problem if I could use the wood stove. Which I can't because the inside of the chimney is cracked and its a fire hazard.

I say at least fire's warm, but people who don't mind the cold as much as I do don't see it my way.

Fuckin' freezing, and (not) looking forward to an early snow. Plus I till need to bury the pet fence wire before the ground freezes. Agh. Work work work. Digging in pebbly ground takes for ever. ><'

hi lemez

pickle, theres nothing in my gallery yet. I hope there will be soon, though.

Ephi, what you need is one of those SARS masks. Maybe theres still some around. If that doesn't get the message through, nothing will. XD

Too tired to say much. My Mom's using my comp for stuff (because hers uses wordstar . . . "Word is hard. What are all these buttons for? Click this, click that . . . WS has easy dot commands. I don't need these fonts . . . ." Ay.

Also, she gets offended when I set her up a seperate user account. "What, you think I'll get into your stuff? I'm not a snoop!" And when I change my account name from 'bart' to 'NO! Access restricted!!--password protected!!'

But then, I have no wish to repeat the last log-invasion farce. And anyway, it's my comp, and I can password restrict any damn thing I want.

And by 'any damn thing' I mean yaoi.

rurounibug ; 09:28 PM|fine, ignore me

October 2nd, 2003

45F

Thats how cold its supposed to be tonight. -.-' Please heat, be fixed when I get home. T.T

^^x

Thats all. Just came here to complain at you.

That and I forgot my work hours sheet again. Goddamn, I am never getting paid.

rurounibug ; 08:23 AM|fine, ignore me

October 3rd, 2003

ohayo!!!

Well, the furnace is back!! *dances* Which is great, because we had our first snow yesterday.

sensei: oh my, look at that!
class: nooooooooo~

And it's only october. Its gonna be a looo~ng, cold winter, judging by the stripes on the wooly bears.

But today I skipped class, slept in, and when I woke up the world was great. XD The house is warm and cosy and you could really feel the house's spirit. =) Just like when I was little. It really feels like Granma's house again.

Maybe I just associate this house with winter and christmas, because thats usually when we were here, maybe it's just the smell of the dusty sideboard radiators going on, and maybe its just the gloomy outdoors, and the lights indoors, but today the house feels warm, the world seems huge and open, and I don't feel like I should be somewhere else.

Today, I'm just not in a hurry. I'm right where I should be.

rurounibug ; 03:08 PM|fine, ignore me

October 5th, 2003

rock on!

XD Listening to the Prambors via internet . . . or at least I was until RealPlayer hung. Heh. Those guys are still messed up. i actually liked the HardRock Jakarta better, but I can't get their site open. Twerps.

Anyway, it slows my connection down to a snails pace, so I guess I'm better off with my winamp and whatever music I have already. -.-'

On a completely different subject, my cousin is getting maried. ^^ Really? I can't believe it. So . . . creepy. We have old-aunt orders to be in tawn for the ceremony, but much I'd love to be there to mock her we're close enough cousins that we pretty much count as siblings and I'd likely find myself wrangled into some sort of cousinly duty all prettied up in traditional batak gear. -.-' Ack. Pass.

Plus she's planning on going very adat (tradional) wedding. Which means pig's head and kains and ulos-es and weird shit I don't get. Weird shit I don't get which by coincidence is usually boring as all hell.

And anyway, I have exams that week.

And yet . . . I kind of wish I could be there. She's the first of our generation to get married, and honestly, I can't imagine her loud mouthed, bossy, eternally ABG self as a bride. I'd like to be there to see how twilight zone-ish the image really is.

Selamat ya, Kakak!!! =')

rurounibug ; 04:17 PM|fine, ignore me

October 6th, 2003

omitchi!

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Hi. If you're reading this blog, tag me. Will get all the links that were up on the old blog up on this one soon.

Things doing (fear my indoglish!!):

~fix fics. Much editing, deguzaruyo. ^^x All the approstrophes turned into little squares. Why for doing I not know.

~finish fics. LGs one has been sitting on my comp for a year now. ALl it needs is an ending. That and it's yaoi-ish scene. Damn stubborn Weiss boys. OmixAya fic scrapped due to squickishness. *point at quiz* He's too cue to smuttify, na?

~get damn site up. It's all layed out, just has nothing in it.

~pics. I'm lazy to draw. And once I've drawn, I'm azy to clean up/color stuff. Just a general, all around lazy bum.

~original fiction. Thinking of it. Would you read it? Even if it's dumb? And tell me its good anyway? *gets kicked* Kind of working on it. Plot is hard. -.- Muy confused.

~blog layout. harharhar. Laugh with me. Its stayign this way for a while, I bet. ><;

~user icon. needs some tidying. (read:will never be done, despite being only 2x2 inches.)

rurounibug ; 11:45 AM|fine, ignore me

October 7th, 2003

new site

this is the scattering, refugee camp of my net junk. Nothing there yet but a couple of old images. if you link me, link there. But please, do it as 'rurounibug'.

^.~

Thats one thing off yesterday's list.

rurounibug ; 12:45 PM|fine, ignore me

October 9th, 2003

mod-ness, yaoi

The YxAml seems to be mod-ing out my ot post. Ptooi!! I'm only trying to tell them about my site move and asking archivers to change my nick on fics. How else am I supposed to let folks know, na? -.-' Well, i hope its just my school comp being bastardly. Sometimes it screws you over for no reason. Yesterday it wouldn't let me sign in to tabulas or geocities. Seems to be working now, though.

But if that its just mod-ness, then I wish they'd tell me so I can stop sending ot mails. Weirdly, the YxA never seemed overly concerned with ot-ness so long as it was still semi-relevant. Site, mail, nick changes used to be okay. How weird.

And by the way, I also think some of the MLs I'm on are ignoring me. I think it's gender discrimination. *shakes fist at fangirls* T.T And by the way, just so you know, that fan-deffinition of yaoi as "a female fantasy of what's sexually attractive, not a gay male one" is fucking annoying as hell. Well, maybe most yaoi written is, but *points at iyf guys* I have a sneaking suspicion that its also largely a gay asian view of whats attractive, na? Well, maybe not really. I kow a couple american guys who really like yaoi. More asians though. Waaa~y more asians.

Yeah, yeah, I know that if you read that
yaoi-con definition page is gives you the history (bunch of female manga-ka, yakka yakka . . .) but next time you go to a yaoicon type con, do a guy count. Idiots. Just cause american guys are big hairy ugly brutes . . . *gets kicked* XD All I mean is that male behaviour/view/etc differ depending on where you are. so do girl ones. You can't just go and gender something according to majority audience/participant. Yeah theres a lot more girl yaoi fans. Theres also a lot more straight girls out there than gay guys. Minus the ones who don't like anime/manga at all, much less yaoi, much less fandom . . . find common denominator (i think thats the english for it ^^) . . . divide . . . are there numbers for this?

Anyway, I like yaoi unless its unbearably stupid and sap laden. A lot of fanstuff is pretty good, though, and most professional stuff is sitting on bookshelf. When I watch Gravitation I jump around . . . sing along . . . yell warnings/encouragement at the screen . . . ^^;

But wait . . . its a girl thing?

[added--> err . . . I'm not as mad as I possibly sound. I've been told I write rants like I'm mortally offended. ^^;; I'm not. I rarely am, actually. I just like ranting. XD]

rurounibug ; 08:53 AM|fine, ignore me

October 14th, 2003

site site!! sign my gbook!!

we are now live at the scattering!!!

no new fics up and not a heck of a lot of the old either. but drop by, sign my book. ^.^

anime club:
sorry, at school, must-->[indoglishmode]

ugh. gwe bete banget!! an sorri deh ama pembaca kalo gw lately marah2 mulu. ^^ Cuma, duh, tuh club skul gwe baru ketemu sekali udah jayus abiez. *cries* Padahal gwe dah high hopes gitu. Ternyata optimis tuh emang cuma membawa kecewa. If You're a pessimist, surprises can only be good, right? Because you're already expecting the worst.

Eniwei, mereka tuch yg bener2 'nerds' abis. Kayak si stereotipe di high school movies-nya Amrik. Ugh, kayanya gwe pengen caci maki mereka semua deh. Pengen teriak2. >< Mereka tuch, . . . OMG, bikin keselNYaaaaa~!!!

Tapi ada sih si co hombre-an asli. Imut deh. ^^;; Hauhauhau~

He's cool, but the rest . . . yg satu bawa2 compu, every two minutes main-in song/trailer/dll. Caper banget sih kau dgn mesinmu itu. Oke lo bisa daunlod, gwe mah kaga bisa beli dsl/cable hook up. Kalo bisa gwe jamin de gwe lebih numpukin macem2 daripada loe semua. Or not. I am very lazy. XD Bukan apa2 seh, gwe juga puny acomp, an kayany alebih keren, so there! Why keren? Punya gwe warma biru, ayo! Dia cuma item. Jelas dong yg jago! *gets bricked*

But, kita dah duduk di kantin. Udah ada echo gitu. Maen musik kenceng2. Anak2 pada teriak. And semuanya tuh, bussyeeet pornish banget. Ngobrolin anime, toket lah yg diungkit. So malas!! Emang toai yg bikin anime hebuat? story an cha dong! SEBEEELLL!!!!

Ce2 yg suka yaoi . . . sok tau! Baru tau fake, gravi, ai no kusabi aja ribetnya. Ayashi no ceres, disebut Ai-aa-shi no seires. Seires? Nani?

Kita aja yg bekas didudukin alias dijajah aja nga usah pake sok jap-accent gitu kan? (karna emang dah rada mirip, but whatever) Jangan sok bisa hurup idup deh di depan gwe. Gwe bisa bacot seribu kilo per jam dgn bunyi hurup idup phonetic. Seharusnya lo pada seneng dgn bahasa lo yg 'ai' 'ee' 'uu' 'ei' 'oh'. Ga usah pura2 de kalo emang kaga bisa. You make yourself sound stupid. Seires, my ass.

Trus-an (pembaca: terus? nooo!!) kenapa mereka ga mau percaya kalo dragonball usah lamaaaaa tamat? Kayanya gwe blon SMA aja udah finish kan? Mereka masih "The manga in japan wasn't out thats why they kept replaying the battle with furiza." Ptuh! Battle bareng furiza kek, battle bareng seru kek, bhu kek, semua itu udah lama lewat, atu.

Gwe tau lo salah. Gwe tau karna gwe udah baca ampe tamat persembahan para penerjemah elex *hugs elex for their good translations that hardly never change cha names* dlm bahasa indo. Masa di Indo dah hadir, di jepun belon nyampe?

Udah salah, sombong pengetahuan pula. So . . . dissapointed . . . in this club. T.T

[/indoglishmode]

And, on top of that, my sych teacher thinks I'm a bigot because he said in Australia, Asia, etc, the world maps don't have the US in the top right corner (first by english format), and I said they did, unless they were focusing on the country specifically (like a map of indo sometimes has singapore poking in the corner, and brunei up there sharing a border) or a novelty map. (aussie tourist traps have these 'upside-down' maps with australia on top, us bottom right), but otherwise world maps pretty much followed a format.

He said that was typical US thinking and that we, the class, might have to work on it. I considered telling him that in my 2.5 years in Australia, land of hell and displaced redneck wannabees, and all my time (21 years-2.5) in Indonesia, I had never seen an upside down world map that wasn't a novelty one, or so old it wasn't so much a world map as a known world map. But I didn't. I let him think I was a typicall US-ite. ^^ There was no way to say it withtou beign snotty.

*hugs*pinknina New site, desuka? Isinya mana dong? Ko 'no entry' gitu seh? Entry dong! Blog, you lazy, lazy think. XD

rurounibug ; 05:31 PM|fine, ignore me

October 16th, 2003

RL, LJ

Just realized how misleading an LJ can be. I just found the journal of a kid I know and she seems pretty cool as her on-line self. In real life is fucking dork.

She's computer one-upmanship girl who I ranted about yesterday in indoglish. -.- Will explain when on a comp that has a working space bar. ^^; Not that anyone reads this tabulas anyway.

Garrr, she pisses me off. jkun an me spent yesterday bitching about her and her croonies. XD I once thought that this snarkyness was what I hated about high school. Now that I'm a proud college student I realize that I love it. So long as I'm the one doing it. Mwahahah~

Have . . . urge . . . to flame. God help me, sometimes I'm a bitchy, spiteful thing. XD

rurounibug ; 08:23 AM|2 replies

October 19th, 2003

today . . .

. . . we scattered our granmother's ashes.

I'm worried because its pretty cold out there. Not like my room where the black plastic box they called an 'urn' had been sitting since she died almost a year ago.

I can't believe it's been that long.

rurounibug ; 01:21 PM|fine, ignore me

October 20th, 2003

bloggageku

^^ Reading over earlier posts, I realized that Ioften sound pretty dumb/mean/fatheaded. When I'm writing someting, it sounds very different in my head than when I'm reading it over later.

Also, I'm astounded by my typos. I usually at least glance over things before posting them, but when I read what I've read on site, or on the ML or whatever, its always full of switched letters, messed up spacebarring, and what not.

Please bear with me.

Not that anyone reads this tabulas. T.T

All the MLs are silent. Everyone but you and me is just returned from yaoicon and are probably sleeping off the trip, dreaming dreams I'm pretty happy not knowing about XD. I'm sure we'll all see blogs and blogs worth of yaoicon stories and event summaries and be enlightened beyond our wildest dreams.

This entry really to say: some old stuff loaded to the scattering

Must work on new html for this thing sometime. So much work for tomorrow, though. Especially since I pissed away the weekend making the fic-link pics, useicon and banner. Peh.

Homework whats that? Grades? Don't need 'em. XD

rurounibug ; 12:25 PM|1 replies

October 21st, 2003

deadness, anifolk

I think I killed the writer's ML. ><;; Gomeeeee~n!! It went wham!silent!! *sigh*

Anyhow, I may have judged the anime kids too soon and too harshly. They sit in the caff mostly, and when I stopped to see if I could scab music off computer-oneupmanship-girl she seemed pretty cool. >< And yes, I do ngemis stuff off people I don't like. Free is free. XD XD XD

I said I'd be positive about this thing and I may have been overly influenced by jkun's negativity. It's so easy to get caught up in snideness. Especially when the snideness being thrown around in your vicinity is also funnier than the tolerance and positivity.

Anyway, it may just have been an initial jockeying for position. Still prety sad, but hopefully it won't stay a geek obscure information marathon much longer.

BTW: Yahoo logs you out when you close the wondow. So did blogger. Tabulas doens't. If you open a new window, you'll still be signed in to tabulas. Must rememebr to sign out when on public comp. ><#

rurounibug ; 07:26 AM|fine, ignore me

October 22nd, 2003

Pics

A couple of new pics at the scattering

They're kind of 'cemong' but yesterday jkun inroduced me to the 'levels' feature of photoshop, which I looked for and found in my paintshop. ^^ I'd been using 'darken' to get the pencil darker, then 'contrast' to increase contrast till the paper was white again. Thats why everything's always so craptastic.

I will fix them and my use icon in the next few days. Really.

b: you know, I'd been using darken and contrast . . .
jkun: Heheheh. Dumbass.
b: >( I'm erasing your assigments.
jkun: thats not very nice. look! shiny photoshop function!!
b: ooh~ shiny!!

rurounibug ; 08:07 PM|fine, ignore me

October 23rd, 2003

ikuyias nedamuosneg, journey to the East

*gets kicked for being jayus* XD

I've pretty much decided to go home fro christmas. I feel sorry for my dog who'll have to be in a kennel for a month or so over the holidays, but I'll spoil him till he's fat and bulat (bulat=round) when I get back.

It's hard, though. When I was in boading school, the hardest thing was going home for breaks. You always knew you'd have to come back. America's not so bad as Australia, in fact, when America's not being fat-headed I'm rather fond of it. XD Like I've said before, I have an American brain, but an Indonesian heart. Thats just the way my halfyness worked out. And even if my brain's touting all the advantages of staying here, my heart wants to be home.

And thats not sap. The other perantau know what I mean.

I have to decide today if I'm going or not. The parental powers have spoken. Dad Almighty says Holidays=Family=Home. BartLogic says Family=more presents=home. ^^ I have some passport stuff to send and get stamped first though. Gotta get crankin if Im goin'

It would rock. I wanna see my buddies. I want to take pictures of Jakrt with my SLR, now that I've been away and can see the city with a fresh eye. I can't wait to talk Indoglish to someone other than myself and my dog and I really cant wait to say "so what, gitu loh?' to a certain someone who keeps telling me love crisis stories. XD

I'm just worried I'll love being home too much. Leaving might suck.

Plus, you know, flying scares the living shit out of me now, for some reason. ^^V

rurounibug ; 08:31 AM|fine, ignore me

October 23rd, 2003

100

plus, Hey!! 100 hits at the scattering!!!

Most of those are me, but hell, people who wander in and don't read this don't need to know that. XD XD

rurounibug ; 08:42 AM|fine, ignore me

October 26th, 2003

pop!!

Why are there so many popups offering to get rid of popups? Just stop flogging your fucking software, and we'd have a good half less windows to click shut. Peh!

Weird weekend. Just . . . weird. -.-;

rurounibug ; 06:18 PM|fine, ignore me

October 27th, 2003

slrs

Oop. I just understood lemez's question, after making an idot of myself in her tagboard. >< heheh. Mine's a Nikon. WEll, really its my Dad's. He's into phototgraphy, so his camera is pretty cool. My proffesor keeps making fun of it, He calls it robo-cam.

Its pretty embarassing, I'm a sucky photographer, but I'd rather borrow my dad's cool cam than buy the shitty one I could afford.

I really need to fix my layout&html for this. I want to put all teh links on the front page. *points at links link* People aren't going to go there looking for links, and anyway, Emily's is the only url I could remember without looking it up, so its not like I'd be losing a hell of a lot of work.

rurounibug ; 12:36 PM|fine, ignore me

October 27th, 2003

ku pergi belajar, sampaikan nanti . . .

Looking at art schools. I really want to go to San Francisco. Na, it's warm there, you know? Or, warmer, at least. Lots of Indo kids.

*looks at lists* Am I good enought to get into one of these schools? Oh, shiny art institute of San Fran. *sniffle*

Wah! I want to go! No snow!! Mild winters!!

Speaking of which, we've had a couple snow falls already. Enough to have dig the car out.

rurounibug ; 12:44 PM|fine, ignore me

October 28th, 2003

complaining . . . what else is new?

Complaint one: No one comes to my site. once more : the scattering is open, with some fics and pics. Yeah, I know its pretty empty, but sign the guestbook anyway. It makes me feel loved. *gets kicked* XD

Complaint two: No one tag or signs my gbook. Or was that part of complaint one already? Ah, who cares. If you go to the scattering, sign, na?

Complaint three: Too much damn photography. Plus with daylight savings its pretty damn dark by the time I get home. My lens is slooooo~w. Bah. Stupid class. I'm a skipping comp graphics to toil at it.

Complaint four: Well, not really a complaint. More like a weirdness. Yesterday, here in this same library, actually, a guy passed me a note asking if I knew any oher languages. I said, Indo and German, and we chatted about the suckyness of my german . . . when he brought up that Indo girl in my school again and procedeed to give me her number.

By the conversation and the chat-about-the-weather-ness of it, I came to the conclusion that the whole thing was about giving me her number. Well, that and the fact that he kept teling me what a great person she is.

Which I'm sure she is, but . . . Wow! Did he peg me as Indonesian by looks? Even Indonesians don't peg me as Indonesian. ^^ Usually they don't even peg me as a mongrel.

Heh. It just occured to me that he might have known already. Indo-girl probably knows of me, seeing as I know of her. I don't know which one she is, though. I think she's the one in the jilbi, just because of the muslim-ness of her name, but who knows, right? Gar! Pressure . . . to call . . . Argh! ><; I keep runnign ito her number. I think fate wants me to phone.

Complaint five (or four, depending): The tabulas blog address is longer than the blogger one. it give mucho opportunity to screw it up. I just realized that when I type, I pretty often leave whole words out. >< Spelling: not my forte

Complaint six (or five): Why are yaoi fans always asking bout gender. Then they say they only asked because I write like a girl. Yeah, that makes it better. >(

Complaint seven (or six): I can neither draw nor write anywhere near as well as the wonder that is MegaTokyo.

Complaint eight (or . . . well, you get it): html is hard. Someone write it for me. *gets bricked*

rurounibug ; 09:40 AM|3 replies

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