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May 1st, 2006

or just use your own

You know how folks want to borrow your computer sometimes? Like, they have a desktop and you happened to have your laptop along and they just want to tweak one or two things on a paper/project before turning it in?

And you know how later you discover they've been online replying to all sorts of weird shit without first logging you out of the bazillion sites you're permanently signed-in on, acting like an ass and leaving the trail leading directly to your email/blog/forum id?

Or files have migrated from one folder to another, leaving assigments and funny LJ avatars and sound files all mixed in like some sort of digital spring salad?

Thats annoying huh?

But you know what? Make a separate guest account on your computer, and watch them get all offended. Don't you trust me? they say via accusing, hurt looks, I'm not reading/looking at/listening to/watching/deleting/moving your stuff.

What they say is, "Fuck it, man, if you're going to be all touchy and paranoid. Geez."

rurounibug ; 04:57 PM|2 replies

May 1st, 2006

mock the mock

wankitywank: Watch journalfen eat itself!!

Just as a sidenote: Why did anyone see the need for the word "fen"? Is "fans" not a functional plural?

rurounibug ; 07:21 PM|2 replies

May 2nd, 2006

doomsday; make sure you have flashlights

You heard me. The world is, apparently, ending next month. Replace batteries and make sure you have canned food. I have Indomie, Top Ramen, and a few cans of Campbell's Soup somewhere around, I think, so I should be okay. You lot better make sure to stock up on SPAM or something, and stock up quick and snappy-like. You know, before the rush.

I'd seen the billboards around and been puzzled by them, but only made the connection today. And man, are you guys lucky I did, because now I can warn you folks what aren't too quick on the uptake.

It will soon be the sixth of June, 2006, or, numerically: 6-6-'06. No wonder so many people with sandwich boards are wandering the city, reminding us that Jesus loves us and asking if we have spare change.

This is good news, because now I don't have to worry about studying for finals. I just hope the universe ends later in the day rather than earlier. Preferably after CSI.



edit: I do have to study. Semester ends on May 30th. So damn, damn close. *sigh*

rurounibug ; 10:43 PM|3 replies

May 7th, 2006

because it must be pretty

My friend, the one points out every "hot" guy on the street, the one who's obsessed with people's visual attractiveness, is, I'm convinced, pathologically so.

It's getting tiresome.

Every lunch conversation invenitably includes the following exchange--differing only slightly--and includes it several times over.

AshK: Do you know [name of singer/actor]?
Romantic Theory Guy: Is he/she hot/good looking?
AshK: Yes/Kinda/Description
RTG: Has he/she had plastic surgery?
AshK: Yes/No/Description of how said person's features seem to have changed.

Occasionally I ask why every lunch must be about plastic surgery, and it's apparently because its difficult to find a Korean or Taiwanese celebrity--the main targets of his hot-or-not-ometer--who hasn't had their face upgraded. The reason RTG gives is that Taiwanese and Korean people have very squinty eyes, so the first thing those who become rich and famous do is have their eyes de-squinted.

RTG is Taiwanese and AshK is Korean. Neither have squinty eyes and the urge to ask if they've had plastic surgery is tempting enough that I usually just try to concentrate real hard on not letting the filling fall out of my sandwitch.

These discussions are about most often about rock and pop stars, but we're two weeks from the end of semester--which means it's been around three months' worth of lunch-time conversation--and neither of them have mentioned so much as a single song title.

RTG also talks a lot about whether or not he's good looking, how he wishes he were good looking, and on a scale of one-to-ten, how would one rate him?

I think the attitude is kind of strange and neurotic, but to be fair, I might be romatically hesitant if someone had something drastically amiss in their aesthetic development . A parasitic head, for instance, would certainly give me pause, and pause that strategic employment of a hat might or might not overcome.

Especially if it has teeth.

Fussing about your normal, decent-looking, non-horribly-deformed, non-parisitic-head-looking-at-you person though, seems, well, fussy.

Yeah, RTG's my friend. He also annoys the living crap out of me. I swear to god, it's like talking to a teenage girl: "You think she's nice? But her butt is so big!!"

rurounibug ; 07:34 PM|1 replies

May 9th, 2006

dear internet porn writers,

I love you.

xoxo,
Bart



You know those occasional posts where I mention that website I once had? Usually followed or preceeded by the words "working on" and "will be back up soon," and then you never hear another thing about it until I say the same exact thing weeks later?

This is one of those posts.

Because I've been reading fics and I've decided I want a recs page. Theres fandoms I will never be apart of, but that I enjoy rifling through, and recs pages have been my map and compass of porn-finding.

They're useful damn things, and now I want one of my own. The better to point good smut out to others.



Dear ficrecs page makers,

I love you.

xoxo,
Bart

rurounibug ; 11:17 PM|4 replies

May 15th, 2006

deadlines. Or just dead

My 3D animation short is due tomorrow.
Scratch that.
Due later today.

Hours of sleep had in the last 3 days: about four.
Status: Pitiful

Yet to do: Dub cycle; toaster burn.


I just want a nap. Is it so much to ask?

rurounibug ; 01:38 AM|4 replies

May 17th, 2006

DNA quiz meme

Yanked from batang pasaway's blog.

I'm not sure how this is a "DNA" test, since it involves no DNA, but whatever.


( clicky clicky)


This test's graph puts me at 100% masculine, 0% feminine. It obviously hasn't seen my very manly slippers:






And while we're here; yes, I do know that my background's gone walkabout. No time for layouting right now, unfortunately.

rurounibug ; 12:33 AM|2 replies

May 17th, 2006

west coast love

If I had to return to a land of no burritos, I think I'd shrivel up and die.

Just sayin'.

rurounibug ; 08:05 PM|fine, ignore me

May 18th, 2006

brown

My Thursday lunch crowd is Asian. Asian-Asian, not mongrel-Asian like me. It worries me sometimes because some of the jokes that get tossed around are sort of . . . politically incorrect. Like making fun of each other's english speaking skills, for example, or debating east vs. west breast size, and whether or not Asian guys can play decent basketball. (Americans won't pass to us, 'coz we're short.)

Not only do I not look very Asian, my accent is . . . sort of not-Asian. At all. I don't know what the hell it is. It's sort of blendered and unclear.

Plus they're all sort of north-er Asian (Korean, Chinese, Taiwanese) and not south-ish (Malaysia, Indo, Singapore, Phillipines) so I don't get most of the languange-based jokes, because they play off those langunage differences. I play off language differences by inserting "lah" randomly into sentances.

And even that would be okay, but I feel like such a white boy making Asian jokes. -___-;; You know how it is, lah. Even the Indos don't see me as Indo; "Ah, I thought you were a bule! No offense, yah! *weird laughter*"

People probably all think I'm one of those "gone native" tipes. T__T;; A "gone native" tipe who gets in on the making of the iffy cultural jokes.

rurounibug ; 04:06 PM|fine, ignore me

May 19th, 2006

ain't replying in your LJ

I'm on a few LJ fic communities--not that I write anything these days, mind you--and it really bugs me when people disable the community post's comments so that you have to go to their journal to reply.

Yeah. Not me, folks. I might follow a writer home to scan their LJ for more fics, if I liked their writing, but no community comment function=no comments at all, even if I would have otherwise.

In fact, over on smug bastard (This comm name just exudes fangirlness. I just thought I'd say that I noticed.) I actually went looking for the reply function to an author's short fics. Twice.

And then I realized that to comment, I had to do it on her personal LJ. I mean, of course I don't mind reading on someone's LJ, and most links off comms do lead back to personal journals, but LJ reply pimpage? So not cool.

On the other hand, maybe the comments are disabled because she doesn't want any.

And I think we should respect that.

rurounibug ; 12:21 PM|fine, ignore me

May 23rd, 2006

Is that a dialtone I hear?

Theres something odd about my phone bill. I haven't gotten a bill in the mail in months, so I've been paying online, where they've reset my address to that of my previous apartment. -___-;;;;

Their website also says I owe them $0, and I worry that that means whoevers been getting my mail has gone and taken it upon themselves to call them up and cancel me, even though it has jack-all to do with them.

On the other hand, phone and net are working.

Oddness.

I hate when things go wonky.

I hate that straightening this out will mean thirty minutes of listening to on-hold music. At least.

rurounibug ; 10:30 PM|2 replies

May 24th, 2006

Dewa19--Kirana

Kucoba memahami tempatku berlabuh
Terdampar dikeruhnya satu sisi dunia
Hadir dimuka bumi tak tersaji indah
Kuingin rasakan cinta

Lusuh lalu tercipta mendekap diriku
Hanya usung sahaja kudamba Kirana
Ratapan mulai usang nur yang kumohon
Kuingin rasakan cinta
Manis seperti mereka....

Coda :
Ayah Bunda tercinta satu yang tersisa
Mengapa kau tiupkan nafasku kedunia
Hidup tak kusesali mungkin kutangisi
Kuingin rasakan cinta

Peluhkupun mengering menanti jawabmu
Takkan pernah usai cintaku padamu
Hanya kata yang lugas yang kini tercipta
Kuingin rasakan cinta

Smakin jauh kumelangkah
Smakin perih jejak langkahku
Harikupun semakin sombong
Meski hidup terus berjalan...terus berjalan

Kirana jamah aku jamahlah rinduku
Hanya wangi terurai yang dapat kucumbu
Back to Coda :

Manis seperti mereka
Tulus seperti adanya
Suci seperti dirimu
Ingin rasakan cintamu

Kirana jamah aku jamahlah rinduku
Takkan pernah usai cintaku padamu
Hanya kata yang lugas yang kini tersisa
Kuingin rasakan cinta...





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Lyrics c&p-ed from www.dewa19.com.

I try to understand the place I am moored
Stranded in the murk of one side of the world
Presence on the face of the earth isn't laid out beautifully*
I want to feel love . . . .

*alternatively: Existance isn't served up in beauty. "Tersaji" has connotations of lavish table settings.

I think Kirana has one of the better opening verses of any song. I'm also fond of the line "Ratapan mulai usang": Cries of mourning are getting worn (worn out, as in dogeared).

rurounibug ; 03:32 PM|fine, ignore me

May 24th, 2006

Chairil Anwar--Aku

Chairil Anwar's "Aku" is my favorite poem of all time. All Time! I'm not a poem browsing literature geek, and had it not been in every school textbook, I probably would never have run across it, but if ever there was a piece of writing that spoke to me, this is it. It bugs the hell out of me when the bules get a hold of it and try to translate it and add cuss words because they can't add emphasis any other way.

Hands off, yo!

"Aku" Loses so much in translation that its not even funny.

(The original, three translations, and commentary)



Comments more than welcome, but indefense of my translation: I whipped it up while I was typing this entry, though I've translated it before (in a similar, as-I-tipe fashion). I still think I did ok, but I'm aware theres a word to two whose rendering into English would have benefitted by use of a dictionary.

rurounibug ; 04:46 PM|7 replies

May 25th, 2006

hold on to your teeth

I'm about to try changing my layout. Please forgive any loading errors.

Thanks.

Here goes nothin'

rurounibug ; 10:56 PM|fine, ignore me

May 25th, 2006

ok for now

obviously the text color needs to be "punchier", but other than that, comments? Suggestions?

Likey, no-likey?

For a stargate layout . . . it's not star-gatey enough, is it? Are you feeling the stargate-ness?

rurounibug ; 11:25 PM|fine, ignore me

May 26th, 2006

I declare this layout cool

Mostly because I'm tired ot futzing with it.

This is the last space-filler entry you'll see regarding my layout. I promise.

Yes, I have some time off before summer school starts. I'm four days into break and its already turned my brain to mush. This layout is the extent of what I've managed to get done.

That and TV.

rurounibug ; 02:21 AM|5 replies

May 26th, 2006

for it is shiny

I think it's been established by now that I read fanfiction, and have, on occasion, actually written some.

And while I defend this occupation by saying I'm only in it for the porn aspect . . . . Yeah, I have a Stargate layout now. I don't think I'm fooling anyone.

Now, like anyone who frequents the world of fannish creation, I've noticed certain themes that crop up cross-fandom. The treacly holiday fic, for instance, is the bane of my existance. As is the sappy "playing in snow" fic, the why-god-why "cast is in highschool" fic, and don't even bring up "kidfic": that odd plot idea that centers on the charachters being aged down or somehow acquiring a child of their own.

And trust me; we don't want to go anywhere near the ways a charachter can a acquire a child of its own. Children are not born that way, fankiddies. Or at least, not usually.

(I get to the point eventually.)

rurounibug ; 04:13 PM|fine, ignore me

May 27th, 2006

Stargate Atlantis fic rec

Freedom's Just Another Word For Nothing Left To Lose, by synecdochic (on LJ).

It's beautiful and sad, and filled with those never-coming-home things that just kill me.

rurounibug ; 03:12 AM|fine, ignore me

May 28th, 2006

aura of goof

I handed in my animation demo reel, or, to be accurate, loaded it to the network hand-in drive, so it could be played in front of the class on finals day.

The handling of the plot involved random inserted stills--a device I thought was funny until it was way too late to change it. So I went with it, and the class seemed to think it was okay. I even got a chuckle or two, and since my last name is nearer the end of the alphabet, it's likely the amusement rate was higher, and everyone was just 3D-ed out from watching the fifteen-plus reels that preceeded mine, most of which featured the charachters dancing and/or singing.

I put a lot more weight on the success of the story telling, than, say, shiny water effects (which is probably not a good trait in a business that focuses on delivering the eye-candy), and I wasn't sure that my use of stills had made sense. And so, after the Playing of the Reels, I went to the proff for feedback.

"I think you really pulled it off," he said, "with a coherent beginning, middle, and end. I would say you really nailed it. I was pretty surprised. I mean . . . you of all people." And then he caught himself and said, "Uh, good job," and "Have a nice summer."

"You of all people"?

I mean, I know I'm something of a last-minute-man, perpetually behind the project time-line until I plant the ass in the chair one week from deadline, but me "of all people?" What about that guy in the back of the class who'd handed nothing in since way before midterm break? What about him?

Me of all people.

I must just look like a goof.

rurounibug ; 04:57 PM|5 replies

May 29th, 2006

because everyone needs a "me" icon

It's the Jrock hair that made me do it, though cropped in half, the image isnt' half as WTF as in the photo.

rurounibug ; 01:26 AM|1 replies

May 29th, 2006

sometimes art is personal

Well. Sometimes it is. Even stupid art like this:

(Cut for people's freinds pages. Because I care.)

A part of me is kinda pleased that people like my pics enough to play with them, and it's not that I'm upset that people did. It's actually kind of funny.

Funny.

Yeah.

rurounibug ; 04:16 PM|4 replies

May 30th, 2006

have a beef

I'm currently involved in an AI discussion regarding our stupider national pastime: tawuran. Tawuran is the street-fighting that occurs between schools and sometimes colleges in Indonesia, usually in Jakarta.

Usually it's sparked by some minor incident: say a student from school A takes the lunchmoney of a student from school B. School B students feel wronged, and gather a posse to go "get revenge", afterwards, school A students do likewise, and so on, until it ends up as a massive in-the-street brawl, occasionally with fatalities.

Most of the time, the people taking personal offense at whatever minor incident has occured don't have anything to do with it; weren't there, aren't freinds of the victim, don't really know anyone who was involved beyond the matter of their schools of origin.

What brings this up is AI-ers bragging about their 'fighting days'. Our equivalent to "I'm so gangsta, yo!" and just as pathetic.

Wanna feel strong? Do a martial art. (I did and Sempai R would have ripped me a new one had I ever been caught in the street hurling bricks at people.) Do a damn sport. Do something, anything, worthwhile But the people who throw themselves into this idiocy aren't the sort of folks who understand dicipline, or working at a skill. They want to go out, toss some rocks around and strut.

Sure, it may sound like exageration, but I swear to you, it's not.

The whole fake 'I'm defending my school' is about the stupidest thing I've ever heard--besides these idiots who are actually impressed by it. The way the Jakarta school system works, you can end up in the same college with a former 'enemy', at which point the 'war' is moot--and completely so--so why even start it?

What, my freinds, is the point of the exercise? And why is hooliganisme something to be proud of?

There are people in this world who have wibawa--a sort of weight of charachter, authority, standing, a kind of commanding of respect. I don't see some moron with little else to brag about than the ability to throw bricks around as one of those people.

I think it's pathetic that so many folks do.

rurounibug ; 08:04 PM|fine, ignore me

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